Life is hard, its a fact!

When people say life is hard they are not lying. I do not want this blog to come across as if I am not thankful for my great life because I have been blessed more than I deserve. I believe that everything in life happens for a reason and I trust that God has a perfect plan for my life but I still struggle with always trusting that because I cannot see the big picture like he can. The past month God has really been working in my life with letting go and letting him be in sole control of my life. If anyone who reads this knows I am a very stubborn independent person so this is very hard for me. I know what my heart feels and wants but is it really what is best for me. My life is usually going 100mph and I am not very good at slowing down and taking a look at everything, I don't pay close enough attention to the details of thing. I am working on being still and quiet and listening to God and letting him be the person who is in control. Typing all of this out is sooo much easier than actually doing it. It is definatly a work in progress.

Some of the hardest things for me in life are realizing that you are going to go through things in life that hurt but you cannot take the easy way out and just leave things the same or not change things because it is just easier to leave things as is. Things are not always going to be black and white, I am not always going to know what to do in situations and the right descion is not always going to be easy. If I would have known this earlier a lot of mistakes would have been dodged but it is all part of his plan. You cannot avoid hurt and pain in life if you could than you wouldnt be able to have all the great and excicting feelings we get in life too.

For my whole life I imagined how my life would be when I grew up, what I would grow up to be, what my husband would be like, where I would live, what my kids will be like. Thinking about these things are so exciting to me but what I am not really struggling with but I guess realized is some of those things are not as big a deal as what I have made them to be, I think I have been in fantasy land. Now dont get me wrong I have very high expectations for all of the things I listed and I am not ever going to settle but I think I was unrealistic about somethings. I believe in that cant eat,cant sleep, reach for the stars, over the hills, grand slam kind of love but that doesnt mean it is going be perfect all the time or that your forever guy will never get on your nerves or never do things that just make you want to scream. You may not get the job of your dreams right away and you may not live in your dream house right away but in reality how important are those things?

God is an awesome God and I am excited for how he is working in my life, as long as I can remember to keep my eyes on him and my heart open to what he is trying to do through me. God is a lot bigger than I am, this is what I have to remember.

This bolg is kind of random and may not make a lot of sense to some people and I am sorry if it doesnt. But maybe it will help someone somewhere. Until next time, God Bless!

Jenny Ann

Just wanted to put a picture with it so I choose one with the teammates at a sleepover we had!