Focus... Faith... Patience

I cant believe it is already February, time is flying by but it everyday seems so slow at the same time, if that even makes any sense. Basketball is still going good, we are 17-2 overall and 7-1 in conference. It is starting to be crunch time and pretty soon we will have to win to keep playing. School is going fine but the work load is about to triple and I am not looking forward to that at all. These next 4 months are going to go quick but they are going to be a tough 4 months. Found out this month that my dad has thyroid cancer and is having a thyroidectomy this Wed the 9th. I am trying not to stress or worry about it but it is very very very hard not too. The doctors seem very positive about this type of cancer and say the cure rate is higher than a lot of other cancers. But cancer is cancer and it scares me tremendously.

That is where the title of my blog fits in, in my last blog I talked about wanting to be a better Christian this year and that being the focus in everything I do in my life and I said it is much easier said then done. This last month has defiantly proven that. It has seemed to be 1 step forward 2 steps back. But I think that is just how life goes and I am taking the attitude of "bring it on" God has shown me in the last month that I have got to let go and have Faith in him and that not everything can happen overnight. It is so easy to worship, pray, study Gods word, stay focused on him and his plan when everything in your life goes the way you want. It is totally the opposite when things stink and it seems like you can never catch a break. It has been so hard for me lately to wake up in the morning and get excited to take on the day and to get excited about what God has for me today. I struggle with having my quiet time and spending time in his word. I find myself being bitter because nothing seems to be going right. Then I make myself get up and take on the day and have my quiet time and pray all throughout the day and someway God always shows me he is here and always reminds me that he is in control and yes there are things in my life that hurt, make me miserable at times and that I want different. I feel God is showing me right now that I do not have that kind of relationship with him  that when everything goes my way and is good I stay as focused on him and grow with him like he wants me too. I get to caught up in whatever worldly things or people that are making me happy. They become my focus and my life and I lose sight of Gods will and our relationship. I am not saying that God is punishing me, he is seeing me through these trials and temptations of the devil and I am drawing closer to him and maturing as a christian. I believe he is preparing me for what is to come in my life and is defiantly helping me grow in Faith and Patience. Acts 20:24, Luke 14:27


God has blessed me so much in my life and I am so undeserving. Please be praying for my dad and our family. Also, please be praying for the Warren Family, they lost their  7 year old son in a car accident about 2 weeks ago, I cant even imagine the pain they are going through. Things like this make me realize how selfish I am being when I am upset about something so small.
 Hope everyone who may read this has a awesome week. God Bless!

Jenny Ann